March 15, 2019

Five Years Sober

Today, I acknowledge you, my pretty, clever, elephant. You are a part of me now.

I was at a "Port Tasting Party" last week and someone asked me if I'd tasted the Feist. When I explained that I wasn't drinking because I'm an alcoholic, the person was surprised that I could handle being at a party like that. I'm not immune to triggers; they do surface sometimes, but it's rare and they're so fleeting. Then came the questions and we slid effortlessly into a conversation about how I struggled in darkness before quitting drinking five years ago.

Isn't it funny how you have to step into the light to see your shadow?


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    1. Thanks so much Derek!!! And I appreciate that you took the time to comment right here on my blog post :D

  2. I’d like to know more! I’m very thankful that as a society, we’re on the decline for drinking. I certainly wish that I’d not had as much familiarity with it as a part of my social world for so long. I have a low appetite and physical tolerance for it; clarity of thought and preservation of time and limits are so important. The disinhibition of alcohol is of very limited social benefit compared to sorting your psychology and your relationships out.

    1. Hi Jane! Absolutely true, on that last point. It took me a while to accept it, and even longer to act on it, so relieved I finally did.